Reflections of the Way Life Used To Be

These are things I want to/wanted to say to people but never had the opportunity or the guts. Many of them are living, some deceased, but nevertheless, these are my true thoughts and feelings:

Person 1- You are a beautiful person, inside and out, and it's a shame you don't see it. I hope that one day you will be able to look in the mirror and see that for yourself. No worries. You're getting there. :-)

Person 2- You seem to be the complete package but you have something very important missing- a relationship with God. I don't know if I could handle that....

Person 3- You hurt me so much, but you also gave me something very precious. For that, I will never forget you. But, all I can do is wish you the best in life. I want nothing more to do with you.

Person 4- It's a shame almost 10 years went down the drain. But, I could no longer handle the lifestyle you chose to live. As much as you made me mad/worried over the years, I feel a part of me is missing since we don't speak anymore. I wonder what you're doing now...

Person 5- I don't like you. You're a sham. You didn't deserve those letters, and in my eyes, you will never earn them.

Person 6- I heard you were the greatest father ever, and you treated my mother like family. You had a big heart, and it killed the family when you passed. I'm sorry I don't remember you. I really wish I did. Speaking of which...

Person 7- You were not much of a father figure to anyone, not even your illegitimate children. Didn't leave a legacy or treasured memories. Only scars, both visible and invisible, on my some of my closest family members. Regardless of whatever feelings I had towards you, I still prayed for your soul. It's not good to harbor such anger and resentment towards someone. May you rest in peace.

Person 8- Where do I begin? I remember in high school, you came in the room as this "sweet and innocent" girl who just arrived in America. You thought I was unapproachable because I was sitting on my desk, applying lip gloss, and checking my hair in the mirror. lol I do believe that it wasn't the best idea for you to have transferred there as people (in my opinion) took advantage of you....though at times you willingly let them. And though I stuck by your side through all the rumors and gossip, you abandoned me for people who played you in the end. I see you now that you have obviously grown to be a beautiful young woman. I just hope you've grown in maturity also.

Person 9- UGH. I could go on and on about you, but I'll keep it short. You are a gorgeous man, but very detached, insensitive, and conceited. Though you were a waste of time, you were a great learning experience, and I appreciate you for that and that only. Keep in touch! Maybe NOT.

Person 10- BEW! God forbid something happens to your mother, but if it did, I would see to it that I raised you myself. I remember watching you fight for your life in the hospital and prayed to God that he'd have mercy on you. Take my health instead, or let me not be blessed with children of my own as a sacrifice for you to make it through. I am so proud of you and I love you sooooooooooo much. *muah muah muah*

You're a Needy Girl

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Electrofunk at its best. Take THAT Daft Punk.

Can a Ninja Get a Table Dance?

As I said in an earlier post, I entered college as a pre-business major. I wanted to study any major that would be the most lucrative in the future. I took ECON 101, and that was a FAIL in every sense of the word. I wrote it off as it being a common freshman mistake. I partied more than I studied, and didn't get the grade. Whatever. I decided to dust myself off and go at ECON 101 again- FAILED. I bet if I asked my parents, they would remember each of the times I called home crying over a failed econ exam. It was a struggle, and ultimately, a deciding factor in changing my major.

You can imagine my horror when a prerequisite to my grad program was economics. I moped and complained about it to whoever listened, and nearly killed myself studying for our first exam. After a two week wait for grades, I finally received my score- a 96 out of 100. This is how I feel now:



I'm just saying.